reflecting
Hey loves,
Just hopping on here for another quick yap session before I get to painting. Hope the holidays treated you guys well and helped you recharged you for the new year!
As 2023 wraps up, I find myself in spaces of reflection a lot, specifically with regards to my growth as both an artist and a person. I’m super proud of the progress I’ve made in a year and just wanted to remind myself of my accomplishments. I’m the type of person that likes to take little and calculated steps so sometimes the “little” part overshadows all that; this doesn’t negate all the progress I’ve made. So to the artists out there, just keep doing your thing, because baby steps are still steps.
Another thing I’ve realized in my reflection is that a lot of people don’t mention the creative journey and the growing pains that come with it. Outgrowing people, things, and even yourself all seem like the pinnacle of being a creative. While this isn’t a feeling that’s foreign to me, it was very interesting seeing it happen in this sector of my life. I kid you not, I’ve cried at probably 3/4 of the art showcases I was featured in, and I just might at the next one (If you’ve seen it happen, no you didn’t). These weren’t necessarily tears of sadness, but more-so just a release. The release of self doubt and vulnerability that I kept in by holding my creativity hostage. Despite all that, I wouldn’t have it any other way. Slowly outgrowing the old me is scary as hell but there’s this underlying thrill that I can’t turn away from. Seeing my fire ignite again for the arts is the greatest reward of all.
I’m saying all this to say that sometimes in the moment we don’t understand why things are playing out the way that they are. The universe has been throwing BRICKS at my forehead this year but with each one I’m learning a new lesson and gaining the tools to build a new house in the process. Rather than hyperfixate on my perceived or desired outcome, I’ve decided to just live. What’s meant for me will be mine.
On that note, Happy New Year beautiful people!
Sammy :)
